being not good enough

  Basically so many things happened to me today that I just want to blurt out all at once. All I ever want to do now is to just scream and shout and let it all out. Everything is just so unbearable. Sometimes one of those worst feeling that one could ever experience is to know that even though one has tried their best, its never good enough. It seems that no matter how much effort I put in the things that I do, it is never seem to be good enough in the eyes  of others. It is even worst when they think you did not put in effort at all and  that you are useless as person or etc. 

  Sometimes all I ever want for someone is to have  faith / trust / belief in me. Is that something so difficult to ask for? I just want to be seen as a normal person and not someone who needs special care. I am a ordinary human being and is independent on myself. All of those special care just make me seen as stupid or had made me felt that way.