" IT'S FRIDAY!'' and it may be time to relax and have fun. But for me? Maybe depressed i guessed. Never felt so disappointed in myself before. I know you might be thinking if it was my exam results, yeah you're right. Perhaps in some teachers or people eyes, they see me as an hardworking girl, who is very studious. But who ever knows the background information? Perhaps it is not really good too. It makes you felt as if that you studied so hard and cannot score well enough too. WELL THAT'S NOT CASE OF MINE. Alright, wait i meant actually it is about the same. LOL. So what if I seemed to be hardworking? Does that mean people who seemed to be "hardworking" can't score well enough aren't smart enough?
People just tend to see things on the surface and judged about it. There's nothing you can do. But who likes the feeling of being "accused"? Though I didn't fail any of my subjects, it is not good enough. The worse feeling is that when you studied and put in more effort in a certain subject or topic, it turns out what you had not expected. I really don't know how to describe it.
It is really right that you should not study the night or days before exams. Though you may know it, your actions may tend to be contradictory of your thinking. In this society, you got to be competitive and be better than others, because that's the way of survival. I know i might sound to egoistic or etc, but what that is life. Fight for your own survival. This industry of life is too competitive.
I really learnt my lessons and every single years throughout my school life, I ended up breaking my words. Since people had the impression of me being very '"hardworking", I should made it as if I am. If not that will be letting myself down.
So sometimes things are not that seems on the surface.. There is so much meaning behind it..
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