Unexpected fall.

 I had fall for you which was totally unexpected..  I felt like I cannot stop talking to you. Is this infatuation? Is this for real? Just a simple chat  make me enough to fall for you? Do I really stand a chance? I was hoping this wouldn't go any further and deeper until my heart told me that I cannot forget you. How can I forget you? I'm so confused if you ever felt the same way.

   Your cool cute eyes, your amazing stare, your amazing looks, your amazing voice and everything about you can't make me stop wanting more than now. I want to spend time with you, every moment, every second talking to you, laughing with you. I hoped that moment never stopped. How i wished if time could stop and let me travel back to that time. Perhaps you have another girl in mind, Perhaps you are chatting with her happily. Perhaps... 

Argument between families?

  Once again I dished out my laptop and signing in to my blog with a sensitive or common topic among families. ARGUMENTS. Well, you can't avoid heated and angry arguments in a family.To a certain extend, it can happen like everyday, weeks or months. Depending on the families itself. I myself also sometimes had "small" or sometimes heated conflicts happening within my siblings or parents.  However, after some of my  observations, this is what I came up with.

  Families involved with arguments because firstly, they have different opinions or mindsets regarding a certain issue. For example, you didn't want to cut your hair but your parents forced you because they find it more neater and better looking whereas you find it short and ugly looking. With both parties having different thinking and opinions, there is difficulty in getting things done. It may often end up with parties having any disheartened feelings. 

 Since it is known there is different opinions between each other, both do not attempt to give in to each other as each of them is thinking that their opinion is right. They do not try to understand each other's opinions or try to think why are they feeling this way Now let's think about this, as a child or teenager whenever your naughty, your parents may beat or scold you and often it ended up with you crying or ranting about it right? Because we failed to understand why our parents do this to us when we're naughty and our parents failed to understand our feelings and thinking as a child and vice-versa. 

  If only we try to just give in to the other by just stop saying hurtful words or keeping quiet when you know that the arguments will never end, perhaps the arguments might end up less violent or more peaceful. But I'm not saying that we should keep quiet when we're being scolded or beaten! Of course you have the rights to speak for yourself but to a certain extend. Like for e.g, you speak in a nicer tone on how you are feeling this way. 

  However some might say that it is difficult to control your words and actions when you are in a anger, but it really depends on your willpower, self-discipline and how sincerely you wanted to settle the disputes. It is also said that as the certain difference age gap between people are more difficult to get along as their way of methods and thinking are different. We can't try to change this fact but only to overcome it. If there is different opinions between each other, talk it out. If you or anyone has anger management problems, learn to control better on it. 

  You also can't always think the fault lies within the other party but not within you. This mindset can harm you, with you not accepting your mistakes and not able to improve yourself better as a person. Sometimes try to understand and care for your families more often. We might tend to neglect them due to work and friends. As the saying goes, " blood is thicker than water." Kinship are also important and main priorities in life too. It will always stick with you for life, especially when you have no friends or anyone to rely on. 

  Today onward, try to understand your family members better, by understanding and knowing how they feel, make them feel that they still exist in you. Small simple actions like, calling back home when you're outside for long hours, having dinner with them and etc. :)

  Okay, that's such a long essay I had written for today! Probably the first essay and lifestyle article in my blog? HAHA. Enjoy and comment about what you think! 

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Just on the surface? Or just...

  " IT'S FRIDAY!'' and it may be time to relax and have fun. But for me? Maybe depressed i guessed. Never felt so disappointed in myself before. I know you might be thinking if it was my exam results, yeah you're right. Perhaps in some teachers or people eyes, they see me as an hardworking girl, who is very studious. But who ever knows the background information? Perhaps it is not really good too. It makes you felt as if that you studied so hard and cannot score well enough too. WELL THAT'S NOT CASE OF MINE. Alright, wait i meant actually it is about the same. LOL. So what if I seemed to be hardworking? Does that mean people who seemed to be "hardworking" can't score well enough aren't smart enough?
 
  People just tend to see things on the surface and judged about it. There's nothing you can do. But who likes the feeling of  being "accused"? Though I didn't fail any of my subjects, it is not good enough. The worse feeling is that when you studied and put in more effort in a certain subject or topic, it turns out what you had not expected. I really don't know how to describe it.

  It is really right that you should not study the night or days before exams. Though you may know it, your actions may tend to be contradictory of your thinking. In this society, you got to be competitive and be better than others, because that's the way of survival. I know i might sound to egoistic or etc, but what that is life. Fight for your own survival. This industry of life is too competitive.
 
  I really learnt my lessons and every single years throughout my school life, I ended up breaking my words. Since people had the impression of me being very '"hardworking", I should made it as if I am. If not that will be letting myself down.

  So sometimes things are not that seems on the surface.. There is so much meaning behind it..
 

 

It's such a long time..

It's such a long time..................... THAT I'M BACK! Wow, It's been months since I had came back. And of course, this an update! AND nevertheless my life right now. So much things had happened and I really don't know where to start. I guess i should start with the most recent incidents.

Today there is no school due to marking day of our End of year exams! Omg cannot believe time just passed so quickly. It's like I still remember the day of January ealier this year. In a years time, I will be taking another national exams, O levels. It's just simply shocking. In 4 years of after PSLE. I always told myself I shouldn't make another same mistake i made in primary school. So what my PSLE isn't good? I believe i can achieve it in O levels. Im gonna make good use of my December holidays. I''l make sure of that. I don't want to make anymore mistakes in life ever again. but however I know im studying for my future. But I don't know what i really wanted to be next time. I always had an fickle mind.

They say chase your dreams, do what you like. My dream is really to become a singer, a musician. However, let's be realistic. Without talent, you're not going to make it there. Besides it is so much hardships. (Im not scared of hardships, it is more like knowing that i won't make it) We always saw on TV how ordinary people from all walks of life to become a big famous and well known singers. I got to admit I didn't have any "talented" voice and nobody admires my singing because I know no one thinks i sing good enough. So why chasing a dream you know when no one thinks you're up too it. Perhaps you guys will say I lack confidence. But this is society. I think I just let things takes easy. I will just take it as a hobby but not my future career.

 As I know I only had interest in music. But I always stumped across this as I really don't know what to do after all. I researched on the courses that intuitions offered and none make me felt interested. Even i do, there is not much interest in it. I had dreams of being a lawyer and etc and it at most lasted for a year before i changed my mind again.

Recently, the course Mass communication had caught up my eye.. It's like being in media..It's quite interesting too.. I think now the most important thing is to score well for O levels and decide since I'm clueless.. And this year will be the last year to party hard with friends before the stress days comes and we will be graduate and leaving each other.. :((((

Anyway that will be it for now, will update more things soon!

Thinking or feeling?

Felt like writing a topic on thinking and feelings today. Sometimes it's just really the gap between thinking and feelings. Sometimes the things you may feel and think might be two different stuff. Sometimes you may either chose to feel then think or vice versa. So which is the really important thing you should do first? Think or feel? Some people may say just put them together and combine both? But it is definitely not easy because we are often blinded by one. From what i really observed, most people tend to fall more on the feelings. For example you felt that your parents are upset because you felt the intense. You felt that you need to help this old lady because she is old. But it might necessarily be feelings. It may be different from anyone else. It all depends on you. Sometimes we really got to follow our feelings but at the same time think about it. So sometimes its really difficult but i think what i called would be 'intuition". Follow your intuition. That's it for today! bye!

Taylor Swift.

Let me post and write something about my favorite  artist this time round. (Ok the font might be different this time round. For easier reading for you guys! )  What I really know about her. Taylor swift. A famous music song writer, singer, a talented lady. Maybe that's not the end. When you think of her, you do think of Honesty, positive, fearless, kind. Mention any those labels, people knows that's her. She won the album of the year album of ''fearless" and has been the Entertainer of the year CMT and ACM for the last 5 years. Her recent album "RED" sold over a million copies in the first week. Won a lot of Grammy awards. Well, that's just not the end. What about her life? The lyrics of songs she wrote, mentally got ''stuck'' in people's head.

From her new songs, you can know what's happening to her life, her relationships, who she is dating and crushing with recently. There's an element of honesty in her songs. She never held back especially when it comes to the writing of her songs. She spends endless days and nights, every time thinking and working obsessively on  the lyrics to better one. She sharpens each line to the extent that it happens for a reason, a story behind it.  For she knows that this lyrics will thus be spread out to people, people will thus have a song to relate too, there will be lyrics where it will be written down in notebook, badges and etc. She likes to write the songs that happens to her as when life of ups and downs goes by, you learnt different things, different ways, feel different emotions. Everything in a different way. She enjoys sharing her life with her fans through her lyrics. 

 In her new album "RED" there are  equal amount of emotions. Such as having hope and faith in love, sweet innocents feeling when falling in love, happiness that comes out real. She hopes that these songs would brings in the emotions of people, at the same time inspire people. She wants people of experiencing different situations to be able to relate to her song.

People might wonder why does let her guard down when it comes to her life expressed in song writing? It's like there is no privacy? Because celebrities don't usually talked about their love life and etc in media like interviews. But why she does that in her song is that she knows that her fans are going to knew it in 2 years time when her albums comes out, they know she is going to fill it in and it's kind of like a trust system.

She has the passion for her music. She has a very unique profession. She does something beyond her living. She dares to try things differently, for example each album to be in a different way, to let each of them stand on their own, stand for something different.

For celebrities and big stars, you might think that they have difficulty making friends due to their household name. However, Taylor does not. She lives a normal social life. She trusts her friends too. If they don't deserve her trust, she just don't trust them anymore. It is just as simple as that. Because she doesn't wants to be those stereo-types like, '' she does not trust anybody, nobody understands her." She finds her life of relationships and friendships are much more better being sung in a song rather than just telling it out.

In one of her meaning event was the song she written called " Ronan" where she wrote it based on a blog that she came across where a Mother had lost her 4 years old Son who gotten cancer and she sang during the event of " Stand up for cancer" programme. She use her profession to do something meaning and yet different too. She also shows gratitude by thanking all her fans who supported her. She has a brand around others.

In interviews there are some inspiring quotes like, ''  Be yourself, chase your dreams and just never say never. That's the best advice i could ever give someone.", " I never felt like there is just one way to be beautiful, you know. Tall or short, straight hair, curly or whatever."

In conclusion of everything, She is just that amazing, inspiring.  She enjoys what she is doing, she shares her joys, she is confident but not arrogant, she trusts people and meet new friends. Unlike some or most stars start living an unnatural life. We have so much to learn from her. She is my most admire, favorite artiste.  And I hope I could be like her.. someday..

AEM @SP Day 5 -The last day.

Hi guys! On the 5th day which is the last day on 14th, we had a group presentation on what we did a tour on DAy 1! My group was the 2nd to present and i was in charge of speaking Fullerton Hotel. I did not know why but i was shaking while speaking. Oh my. I guess i was unprepared and nervous. Anyway since that was the last day i was feeling quite sad too as it was the last day! We also had a test on the last day to determine our score and the certificate we will get.  This was a rare and fun experience when we can get to try out new things in poly life. So this gives us much more better idea on our life track. I really liked the teacher that taught us Tourism, Mrs Wang! Though she manged to only teach us for 2 and a half days! This course really makes me learn a lot in Tourism and Hospitality and nonetheless this course was very memorable and usual. I never regret it. It also enables me to widen my horizons in knowledge too. If there is the other chance i would attend this kind of course again!

With Mrs Wang ^^

Having some snacks while Waiting for Miss OK in class after lunch. 

With the friends going for lunch in cafe. 

AEM @SP Day 4- Dining at Restaurant

The 4th day we went to a restaurant in Singapore poly itself  to enjoy great food and desserts in the VIP room! And nonetheless to learn about hospitality in restaurants!

Paper Napkin of Rose

We got to learn paper napkin folding in the class. For example the bird of paradise, swan and rose. My first successful folded paper napkin was the rose! You can learn it yourself in youtube too at this link. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGPUh3LzDx0

Before the dining the waitress had actually asked for volunteers in being a waitress, with serving glasses filled with water. I was shaking when trying to walk with it. It is not easy as you had to balance it. Nonetheless with water or wine filled. It really takes practice and i can imagine the waitress hard work everyday carrying glasses and serving it with their arms and hands. 

At the dining we got a drink of either coke or sprite , bread with butter , following by the mushroom soup before heading to the main dish. I did not know what was the dish called but from my taste of eating it is chicken with pasta noodles. However when we were having the main dish halfway, all of us were very full. I guess it is because of the mushroom soup we had in the first place. The main dish was just simply delicious! I love the cheesy taste blending in my mouth~ The chicken was nice too. However i do have some difficulty cutting the chicken too as i was not that used to it. especially holding the small knife. 

Main Dish 

Dessert 

After the main dish we got the dessert, of strawberry ice cream with waffle. for that moment on the appetite was back.

Tea

After the dishes we had for the last thing was either Tea or Coffee. I chose Tea as i seldom tried Tea and coffee has a lot of caffeine in it. But it turned out my choice was wrong. It doesn't fulfill my taste buds. Maybe it could be the lack of mixing sugar, cream in it. I tried my friend's tea too. It was nice but i didn't like it a lot as compared to Coffee, I was a more of coffee consumer than tea. Well, at least i understand  something about my taste!

The view outside the restaurant 

With of my dining mates. 

Picture took in the reflection of a glass outside the restaurant

                                           

After the dining we went back to the lab and learn about the Amadeus software system. Where software that commonly used in travel agencies

I really had enjoyed my day 4 at SP,not only i got to enjoy the food, i also learn about the hospitality and service in the restaurant and some other interesting stuff!. 

And this is the end of Day 4 i would like to share! Now do stay upon on the 5th day of the course, which is the last day! 

AEM @SP Day 3- Trip to Peranakan museum

Day 3 was the trip to Peranakan Museum, located at 39 Armenian street. Our tour guide was Elisha Paul. Mrs Wang, our teacher told us that he was very good, and won a lot of awards too! He is very knowledgeable too! He told us how did the Peranakans origin and came about. Let me share some knowledge with you guys! From what i knew, the Peranakans may not be different races married together, for example it could be Chinese with an Chinese or Malay with Chinese and etc. As for their culture, they had a 12 day event of marriage! Imagine 12 days with about near 15kg of jewelries and accessories like headgear, which are made up of gold,  carried on their body for 12 days is really not easy and simple! The wedding garments were heavily embroidered silk. It was decorated with pairs of auspicious peonies and phoenixes. Besides most of the ladies are only 14 years old!

Entrance of Peranakan museum 

Most of the Peranakans couple bed would put  A hen and a rooster under their beds alive. According to their tradition, if they had pulled out a hen, it means most likely they would bear a girl and rooster would be a guy. Before they could actually sleep on the bed, they had to let a small boy born in the dragon year to roll and jump around in the bed! As most of them prefer boys born in the year of Dragon.
Nonyas were also trained for marriage life from a young age. most of them did not attend education too. They were expected to have excellent culinary skills and bead work! However Babas (guys) could also do bead work too! Nonyas were also not allowed to go out in the public and also only allowed to stay in the kitchen or rooms when there are guests. If they really want to go out, they also had to bring body guards and stay in a cubicle kind of room and the body guards would carry them around.

AEM @SP Day 1&2

Hi guys! Spent my 2nd week at Singapore Poly completing Advanced elective modules about Introduction to Tourism. Basically we had experience the life of poly and the course there. On the first day we went to tour by ourselves in Clarke Quay in the afternoon. And so we did walk around and interviewed some tourists.

 Interviewed this lady from England and she is 38 this yr.

 I forgot where she is from. haha well i remembered it is from one of the island states in united states.

 This is the merlion park with one of the small merlions.

 He is one of the Hot guy!! Oh my! haha though he did not look that good in this picture. His name is Brunet, came from Britain and has so far went to Singapore zoo~ been here only for the first day. The picture below is in the Fullerton Hotel. it is just so nice inside!With those high class feel and design.  Took a photo from one of the angle here! Well it is just so such a rare experience with friends!! It was so fun touring around like this! well from the interviews, could see that tourists really like Singapore a lot, due to the cleanliness and safe place that Singapore has! Nonetheless of course the attractions and Singapore has! Did not knew that Singapore Zoo was one of the first and high class places in the world! It was told that the animals weren't kept in the cages and they also had display information! So if you had come to Singapore for a tour, do come to Singapore zoo!

  Our teacher, Mrs Wang also treated us pizzas on the 2nd day!! And 2nd day was a lecture day, staying in class only! >< She is very nice and patient  to us and though she only knows us for the second day, she still treats us pizza! which is very unusual and rare for a Teacher to do so! 

Playmax 2013

Hi guys went to a event called  Playmax! (Sorry for the very late post!!)  near city hall mrt , 7 June 2013 on the 2nd slot in afternoon! It is at St Andrew's Cathedral. There are a lot of stations such as Foodmax, Chillmax, Funmax, Ninjamax and Ninja Max nd more. The most memorable was the Extreme max. Where there are people from other countries (new zealand i guess) showing performances using a lot of strength. Some pictures like,

One of them blowing a water bottle being blow up.

The 2 above photo shows how he was to break those bricks.

This was rolling over 350kg of wheel tyres over.

there are also some other such as bending a wire in the mouth to be a U shape. A lot of these things shows life lessons. For example some shows that sometimes life is not too late to make a turn, sometimes thing that you done are recorded, remembered by people. What are your fears stopping you. Some other stuff are related to Christianity. Basically is all about life. Like nothing is impossible. 

we also took a photo with some of them! 

Don't lose your cool.

Today was a day in school again for extra lessons.. and audition practice for Talent time in the morning. Okay I really ate a lot today,, especially in the morning and afternoon and  NOW in the night. I really have an big appetite. Oh well, i can say that sometimes life is really just unfair.

 Like some people can do this way, while some can't. Even they do, they will get judged and some doesn't. Sometimes only others can speak up that you're wrong and you can['t defend yourself while some can just let it go without others saying about them. I just really had enough today.

. Sometimes in life you are also forced to be friends or be with  that you don't like, fake people and etc. But actually in our society now, fake people are everywhere.. True friendships are hard to find. Im proud to say that i recently made a good friend from someone that i seen for 2 years and with only 1 month of interactions, we felt as though we were like long term friends, friends that have seem to know each other very long. That feeling is mutual too. Im so glad to find this friend. However sometimes friends may not stay together forever. But still, who need to look in the present instead of too much in future! Just own the night  and life! Let's just rock!!! :) Anyway sometimes those kind of fake friends are just needed to be ignored about them. treat them as a joke. a rubbish? - to be more worse. 

Besides It's not worth too. Just be happy! :)  LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE UNHAPPY. 

Cherishing people around us..

ALright! its the June holidays!!! Hell yeah! didn't went to school on Friday the last day as i was sick. Went to Bugis with Shu Min again today. Bought some stuff also at Jurong point and went to Vivo City Rooftop again to chill. Okay as usual, we took some awesome photos! Here are some of photos taken today and bought.
   
                     

And i came across a YouTube channel, where this particular girl, will always post videos of moments captured in camera with her friends. she will always take images and videos and edit it to videos. it may be like for example, a particular day where friends came for karaoke at your house, a day to Sentosa, etc. Sometimes when you look back at these videos, it's all memories. Her videos somehow just inspired me, encourage and motivated me to do similar things like that too. Because sometimes these moments are just memories. Next time when you may get older and all these are flashbacks. It is just something that cannot be bought. I should this too.  There was a quote in one of her videos, " True friends are hard to find , difficult to leave and impossible to forget." That video really made an impression on me. . So we should always cherish the people around us!!! 

HAPPY JUNE HOLIDAYS!!!!! :D